Christmas

Another blog entry, I’m on a roll..

Christmas is a great time of year when everyone’s suppose to be happy, singing, clapping etc during the festive period. However, the build up is usually very stressful, but why?

Supposedly the happiest period of the year turns out to be one of the most stressful.

Most…no, it’s correct to say some of my friends aren’t getting gifts for anyone maybe ’cause trying to think of what to get is a stressful process, buying it is even worse! I’m getting gifts for my family but even that was hard. It was hard to think of what I wanted and it’s hard to think of what my family would want, so why bother? I suppose when someone says ‘what do you want for Christmas?’ they really mean ‘How can we negotiate what you want for Christmas’. It’s nice when the day comes and you’re handing people the gifts and you see that they’re happy with what you got them. It’s also nice to wait in anticipation to see what they got you, if anything.

However I fear that Christmas has become a sort of ‘buy the biggest and the best’ rather than just enjoy the company of your family or friends or whoever you spend your time with at Christmas. I know it’s just one day but it’s a big day just as Ramadan would be a big day for Muslims. It’s a day you’re suppose to be happy and the build up to it should be just as good. A lot of people always say ‘I hate the Christmas period’ - that shouldn’t be! Just because you’re older doesn’t mean you should hate everything…well not yet anyway. Don’t let the Christmas period bring you down, try to let it bring you up!

Today

A friend of mine asked me whether I ever update my blog. Thanks love I know you’re only asking because you’re really bored at work and you want something to do! Plus I don’t update as much because no one comments so I don’t know if you’re reading it or not. Good to know you are!

Today was/is quite depressing. I woke up this morning as I do almost every morning of the week now and was feeling really down, or slow, or depressed. I’m not sure which one or if it’s all of them. I guess I’m just tired I suppose but it’s not because I have to go to work everyday but it’s more because I have nothing to look forward too....only Christmas. Just going to work, sometimes going out on the weekends etc. I’ve done those things before I need something new and fresh. I reckon a holiday would be perfect but by the time I’ve organised everything with the people I want to go with, I probably wouldn’t go. So I was wondering whether I should go on my own or just take one person with me, someone reliable and willing to take a break as much as I am.

Someone at work said that she’s going to live in Sydney in January. I admire her, I’ve been meaning to do something like that as well. Maybe not live in Sydney or anything but go somewhere for a couple of months. I need to miss London in order to appreciate it a lot more. I believe you can’t really appreciate your life until you’ve seen some new things every couple of years or so, it’s a form of stimulation which I need/want…but where to go?

As for those interested in how my work life is going, well, its going I suppose. It’s a little stressful because it’s Christmas and everyone wants their money but other than that it’s fine. The hype I was on when I first started this job has subsided and now I’m just use to it. I’m happy I have it and I would go permanent if they asked me too but I doubt it right now. Things seem a little unsteady with the company structure or so I'm told....

A New Day.

Monday 4th December

I was going to write that after 5 weeks or whatever, I’ve never really felt tired or anything. Now, I’m feeling the toll of routine work. This is what I’ve dreading way before I even knew what I wanted to do. I have to wake up when I don’t feel like waking up, literally force myself out of bed and crawl to the bathroom. Even after a bath I don’t feel awake. I got bags under my eyes because I’m tired and I feel drained. What happened to those days when I could wake up at 12pm? Plus I think I’m contracting a cough…and don’t forget my hair…To make it worse, I tried to get in on time but annoyingly got in early and my manager wasn’t even there to see my good (albeit unintentional) act.

But I’m in the office now and the sun in shining. I feel better but not at my best which is better than nothing right? Its amazing what listening music can do for you.

This weekend I slept a whole night on Sat which I haven’t done in a long time which may the reason why I feel/felt tired, too much sleep.

I wonder what today will hold for me…hopefully something good...hopefully...

Hair Trouble!!!!!!!!

Today I decided, was going to be the day when I finally plucked up the courage to go and get my hair cut. So I woke up at 10am this morning, stood at the bus stop for about 5 minutes then decided I could walk to the hairdressers. I could get my days exercise while doing it as well so its all good. I got to the hairdressers now and I told them what I wanted…

Anyway to cut the long story short I basically feel like crap.

My hair that was once almost near the middle of my back is now shoulder length and I really don’t like it because it’s so FLAT! I wouldn’t expect guys to understand my feeling but women should get what I’m saying. Spoke to my friend today and she understood completely. I basically look like a wet rat or a European person after they have just washed their hair. It’s HORRIBLE!!!! I hate that’s its so much shorter than usual, and I now know why I’ve taken so long to get round to doing it. Instead of walking out the hairdressers feeling buff, I was walking around with my hood on, holding it down so the wind wouldn’t blow it off and show the hideous black tentacles that lie beneath. But OK OK, lemme just chill a minute…Its good because at least I’ve gotten rid of all my split ends and the fact that so much had to be taken off shows that my hair was in bad condition. Im gonna put my hair in extensions once this has puffed out and it looks a lil messy but at least Ive done it! Hopefully the rumours are true, that once you cut/trim your hair, it grows back nicer and thicker. I must admit, I would like my hair to be thicker rather than longer but right now, I dont think I have either!! No ones gonna see me this week so it’s good. All I will do is go to work and come home. Simple.

Hair is just LOOOONG and to make it worse, I’m craving…